Never say never

another day of school is here

so once more I must conquer my fear

of speaking to you, whom I like

it's like getting on stage and talking into a mic

the only problem seems to be

that I hate crowds most defiantly

so talking to a thousand people

is like jumping off the top of a steeple 

but just for you, I take the plunge

absorbing my fear like a sponge

I nervously look and awkwardly wave to you

you laugh, then I notice the toilet paper on my shoe

I feel as if all is lost, it's over now.

the boundaries have been pushed further then I would allow

my friends gently try to tell me

that this happens to everybody

but I can sense their lies

they should try harder to disguise 

the obvious truth 

that my life is no use

they all say I'm special in my very own way

but that's the same recitation they told me yesterday

you hate me now, all hope is lost

I feel like garbage that has just been tossed

but little did I know that moment

soon I wouldn't feel like a disgusting rodent.

 for tomorrow you come up to me

and ask to speak privately 

we walk into an empty room

with nothing in it besides a mop and broom

that's when you told me then

that if I was barbie you would be Ken

my heart is beating the beat of love

I feel like I'm soaring like a dove

you lean in close to make your move

I feel as if I am in my groove

after waiting years for this

we have shared our first kiss.