Procrastination.

I strive to be the one in the led


popular, and a straight A student is what i wish to be


but as of now the goal seems out of reach


Science is hard and math isn't a peach.


my grades seem to be falling more and more


as if my future is walking out the door


so many distractions, so little time


why do homework when i can write a rhyme?


i think i have just proved my point...


sigh, i gotta get out of this joint.

Never say never

another day of school is here

so once more I must conquer my fear

of speaking to you, whom I like

it's like getting on stage and talking into a mic

the only problem seems to be

that I hate crowds most defiantly

so talking to a thousand people

is like jumping off the top of a steeple 

but just for you, I take the plunge

absorbing my fear like a sponge

I nervously look and awkwardly wave to you

you laugh, then I notice the toilet paper on my shoe

I feel as if all is lost, it's over now.

the boundaries have been pushed further then I would allow

my friends gently try to tell me

that this happens to everybody

but I can sense their lies

they should try harder to disguise 

the obvious truth 

that my life is no use

they all say I'm special in my very own way

but that's the same recitation they told me yesterday

you hate me now, all hope is lost

I feel like garbage that has just been tossed

but little did I know that moment

soon I wouldn't feel like a disgusting rodent.

 for tomorrow you come up to me

and ask to speak privately 

we walk into an empty room

with nothing in it besides a mop and broom

that's when you told me then

that if I was barbie you would be Ken

my heart is beating the beat of love

I feel like I'm soaring like a dove

you lean in close to make your move

I feel as if I am in my groove

after waiting years for this

we have shared our first kiss.

in my dreams...

your everything to me

only with you I wish to be

long to know if you love me too

I feel hopeless without you

at night when I dream forever

i see you and I together

but then reality strikes

I awake to itch a mosquito bite

and then I'm alone to find

the time we shared was all in my mind.

left there, awake to think,

of how you were gone in a blink

we were just two plates on a platter

but that doesn't seem to matter

because now I'm sitting in bed

with a thousand thoughts racing through my head.

of me and you, you and me

and if we were together how happy I would be

but that's just a dream for another time

because Now my alarm begins to chime.

good bye my friend

I will see you soon again.

silent war.

well. I know there are worse cases of bulling then the one I am about to share but yea. anyway, this person, who I will call... Kim. now Kim acts like my friend and we usually get along but she doesn't know the meaning or the words stop and no. it may not sound like bulling but she pinches me, hits me "gently","tickles me" (more like scratching with razors as nails) and throws stuff at me, which always seem to hit the back of my head and face by "accident". she also likes to tease me about my features, and calls me names. and if I make any attempt to retaliate she gets mad and freaks out and says I am making a big deal of it. it's terrible. anyway, I am just sick of it and had to get it out. so I thought, " why not in a blog?"

the life of a person i call me.

Hey :] i have decided that since i haven't blogged on a while and have no idea what to talk about, i will tell you about me. I 

• love drawing
• like to write (anything. lame stories, poems, and notes to friends xD ) 
• hate running. i make a fool of myself.
• favor the colors green, pink, and sparkle. (if that counts)
• have 2 dogs and a bazillion hamsters.
• would personally classify myself as a hopeless romantic
• am self conscious.
• tend to be loud. but im shy around people i dont know.
• am 5'8
• enjoy the movie 'Baby Mama' and 'Juno' even though they aren't very...er.. appropriate. mainly Juno..haha
• like  volleyball, but suck at it.
• am a computer addict.
• procrastinate.
• love the show lost and the office.
• dont know what else to put.

well, now you now about me, tell me about you! :D

Head in the Clouds ♥

-sigh- have you ever read something or seen something on a tv show that could never exist or work? well. i recently started reading the AMAZING series known as Harry Potter. and i can rid the feeling that there is a place like hogwarts and that magic exists... i know what your thinking. im a freak.crazy.ect. but im not. because im positive you have the same feeling. doesnt have to be the same as mine. it could be anything! that there are superheros, time machines, aliens, lockness monster, ect.  My word of advice is keep dreaming :] like seriously. dream. i find if i focus on something really hard i can dream about it. sometimes. haha but if you cant live it. dream it.